A Conversation with an Ex

In one peaceful day way back a century ago, this conversation of me and my ex took place.

The Ex : I've been having a large number of hits on my Friendster's profile
Me : Congratulation! You've started the insanity on the buzz of being popular
The Ex : What strikes me most is... they were all directly connected to you
Me : Don't worry. Having them viewed your profile would do no harm.
The Ex : It's not about being worried of getting harmed... but...
Me : So, what's the big deal? They were just my ex'es.
The Ex : Honey... but there were so MANY of them!
Me : Oh... and that surprises you?

Later that day I got to thinking about myself. Have I turned myself into a self-centered lunatic all these times? Did I bitch myself too much? Is it just everyone's being normal and I am being the outcaste? Or, it's simply just like what I said long time ago: we live in a world full of cynicism and I couldn't help myself of being cynical.

I've been walking on many different paths in my life. Some were good while some others may well be just as ugly as they may appear. Look up at your dictionary and you could just find hundreds of ways to define your paths of life. One thing I believe is that we don't live in a planet that works entirely on binary system where black only exists over white, good stands over bad and one merely stays over zero.

My sincere apology to my fellow friends who's color-blind but I may have to tell you that my life is so full of color. Yes, there were the good, the bad, the ugly and surely many colors and shades in between. Even rainbow with its seven-color has to work really hard to win the competition. There could be just as much number as you could think of to exist between zero and one. So why would we only think that our life is either good or bad?

Be it a self-centered lunatic or a sinful bitch, I try not to put any regret in my life because I've decided to move forward.

I just couldn't agree more with Carrie Bradshaw of Sex And The City on some of her quotes. "The past is like an anchor holding us back. You have to let go of who you are to become who you will be. Maybe our mistakes are what make our fate. Without them, what would shape our lives? Perhaps if we never veered off course, we wouldn't fall in love, or be who we are. After all, seasons change. So do cities. People come into your life and people go. But it's comforting to know the ones you love are always in your heart. And if you're very lucky, they're just a short plane-ride away".

Forward. Move forward. Cliché it may sound, but it works best for me when I found myself stuck on a maze of dead-end choices in life.

The pleasure is all mine to tell you how glad I am to set myself to embark on such a daring adventure ahead. A truly rewarding yet daring one. Indeed, I'm just so lucky to be in it.

posted by dodY @ 19:24